Life as I see it

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 14:10:47 GMT

So for about a second the baby might have been born.. but it was only practice... Just about two weeks until she is due. I am very excited. I am almost done with one of the blankets I am making, with hte yarn choosen by J. Once done with that I will start the one chosen by me.
They are both gonna be super cute.

I actually get a small break at school this week. Not a lot of homework. YAY. I did not do any homework this weekend, I did not even think about it. It was NICE.

I also do not have highschool today, so I can just take it easy, get some homework done in advance, work on the baby blanket, clean the room, etc. I have even less homework due the next week, just one assignment.. were this week is 4 assignments.. the week before was like 7 or 8. So this is very nice.

I seriously only have 14 or 15 more assignments.. I am so close to being done this semester.

Then I go home work at B&BW. Gear up for my studetn teaching semester. I have been warned by multiple people it is going to be exhuasting. But hey it will be my last semester and I can apply all that I have learned.

what is going to happen in life after that??? I do not really know right now.

So it has been about forever...

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 18:20:56 GMT

Long time no see huh?

I have been pretty busy and when I have more time to myself usuaaly I am not near a computer wiht internet capabilities. THough over the summer and through the fall at moms I definately have to pay for internet to be at home. I have school things that i need to get done over the summer and Student Teaching in the Fall!!!

Yes. 6 weeks left to this semester and then only student teaching. I am super happy about this..
Though it would not seem like it because lately I have a lot of complaints. School has been frustrating.. not like last semester in whihc i did not know hwat I was supposed to be doing but in the sense of not only too much work but what seems like more of busy work.

Classes are not being that difficult. Like my Ecology class is relatively easy. It is just frustrating that I am in a 300 level class at a university and some of hte students still do not understand the concept of what an experiment is. Or they do not read the lab they are to work on for hte day so all they ahve is questions. I may not always do all of the reading I ma supposed to do but I always know what is being discussed and can join into converstations wihtout a problem. Now because one of the guys miss class often I am stuck wiht him in my presentation group.... I knwo I will have to carry his wieght. It sometimes astounds me how far some people have gotten without hte knowledge.

As for my other classes they seem repetitive and not really enough material to spread through three classes, I think that maybe shortening them up to two classes or a really big one class would be a better means of teaching.

So I knwo that I wil be student teaching in Warren Consolidated. Hopefully if they finda teacher willing... If not maybe I can transfer over to utica or something, I was told they have found several chemistry placesments over there in the past.

WE will see. I will keep in touch with my supervisor so I can stay updated.

The waiting game is the worst.

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 22:16:38 GMT

10 days until beths wedding.. less then a week!!!! This weekend is her bachorlerette party! its going to bethy style fun. Drinks, movies, popcorn and a bunch of us girls just hanging out having fun. Talking about weddings and babies and the like. I think of all the girls that will be there... 3 are married, 2 are engaged and only 2-3 of us are dating or single.. (not inclduing bethy)

So the plan for the next few days, since I have no more homeowrk due this week I am going to get ahead for the next two weeks. as much as i can.. that way i dont have to worry about homework this weekend or next!

I do not know where dad and kim are staying or how long but I will have saturday and sunday free.. and sean should have saturday night and sudnay free. We are probably going to be in chelsea, about 20 minutes from where beth and bob are getting married. So just let me know whats going on..

oh and i have no classes on monday... just work but if i told joe (my boss) that you guys are in town.. including grandma and aunt cathie.. then he will let me off the hook that day!

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 19:45:56 GMT

Merry Christmas!!! Out at my brother and sister in laws place. Lots of fun..

My tooth , or absence of is doing great. Feels soo much better. it doesnt hurt anymore, or actualy very often.

and I earned 3 A's and A- and a B this year. One of my best years at college.

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 04:56:20 GMT

I am going to the dentist tommorow. I called her this afternoon and she quickly made an appointment for me tommorow at 11.. she might pull the tooth. I have a feeling though that she wont. I hope she lances the abcess and she will probably issue me new, better, stronger antibiotics.. Though my cheek looks much more painful than when it was just the tooth, it is actually less painful. The pain is spread out, so it aches more then with teh tooth hurting with sharp pain. Luckily I can afford the visit tommorow, so this is good. Now I just hope that I can stop looking like quazimoto.. and possible get a full nights sleep for once.

Ha last night, I woke up about 4 in pain, so I took a pill and then read in teh living room waiting for it to kick in. ONce it did I shut off the light and before I adjusted to the dark, I turned to go into the room and ran into the corner of the wall. I have a little lump on my eyebrow. lol funny and clumsy..
The bad thing about being clumst right now is that every once in a while I hit my mouth.. can you say ooooow.

oh I have the best boyfriend in the world. Whne I called the dentist and she told me the time of hte appointent I didnt know if I woud have a ride.. so I looked up the bus route and found one that wold work.. it turned a 20 min drive into a 50 minute drive.. awfull. But I also called sara (seans sister) and sean.. neithe answered but I left a message with both.. both called me back. Sara first and she said she could give me a ride. then sean called and said he could give me a ride. aww nice.. So now I have to call sara back to let her know she is off the hook becuase sean is going to be on campus anyway.

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 15:37:54 GMT

Last night my face looked like this

This Morning my face looked like this... its growing.

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 20:20:04 GMT

So the tooth situation..

I ended up going to a dentist on saturday becuase I couldnt take it anymore.. They took x-rays. My tooth that had a root canal done on it failed. So it is very much infected.
I have two choices... Get it fixed. through the crown... which is really really expensive. or I can get it pulled which is much less expensive... I am going to get it pulled. its a back tooth so grandma backed me on it.

I have a scipt for antibodics and painkillers.
It is still difficult to eat.. and now the side of mouth is swollen. ick.

but its getting better and I know now how to fix the problem..

I just need to find a dentist that will help me out and get the tooth out.. for a payment plan maybe...

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 16:07:11 GMT

uggg.
So I have this tooth that has been hurting for a couple of days... a lot.
I have tried to get a dentist to see me, and most wont even accept a person wihtout insurance and on top of htat those that do, wont even consider doing a payment plan with me. I have no credit becuase I have never had a credit card, nor have I started payment on my loans.. so i have nothing

Oh and the one place I foudn out here that work with people like me, you have to become qualified to become a patient.. and they only do qualifications twice a year.. I missed that by only a few days.. yippie.

Luckily Mom says that J and TJ foudn a place that worked with them,, and mandy Says that Kathy knows of a place that worked with her.... But they are both back at home so I have to wait until at least wednesday if not later to get my tooth fixed or even looked at. So I am taking tons of ibprofen, and asprin, and using the orajel.. whcih only works for 20 min... Just have to get through less then a week....

The saddest part is that it hurts to close my mouth all the way... (as in teeth together) so eating is AWFUL.. and i love eating :(

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 14:38:25 GMT

Saw the Golden Compass last night. It was amazing.. So I decided I wanted to read the books..

Little did I know there is big contraversy..

I guess the golden compass is about anti-catholic/christian things..
I read the reviews and I can see were they are coming from, but not based on the book itself, but based on what the auther has stated in interviews tehn reading the book... If you just read the book I think you will se more about anti-authority... (Well based on the shortened versions I read) In the last book they kill god.. and people are fired up about this.. but it turns out this is just someone callig themselved god... I can see where people can get upset.

It was funny though, a man a pastor or something said that he was fearful of children writing it becuas it made atheist hero's... I am not sure kids are that gullable that they will become whatever there hero is... I mean yeah want to be a basketball player, but stop believing in god...
I think that is the point of the book really, Certain christians would like to take the choices away, so that children have no choice but to choose... And that is the point.. We all deserve free will, even though that may mean a disregard of religon.. IF you beleive in god then you believe god made free will a part of your make up... he wouldnt have given you the abillity to quetion if he did not want you to use it.

plus one reviewer was appaled becuase it was about female circumcision?? I did not get that from the movie or the synapses.. (she supposedly got it from the synapses) She didnt even read the full book... Odd..

Hey DAD and SMOM

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 04:40:03 GMT

I just wanted to let you know, if you ahvent heard. Mom had her surgery today. She had a hysderectimy and her herina tooken care of. Beth, bob and I were there when the surgery was over and she looked good. SHe had good color and of course was a little groggy but came out of it quickly and well. There is still a chance they will do the surgery on teh hemrhoids we will find out tommorow.
Grandpa is doing a bit better, he is actually moving around on his own a little. movig his legs around doing some lifting. A neurologist saw him today but we do not know the results of that. There is a possibility of a stroke.

Ive reached that point

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 05:06:39 GMT

I've have reached the point were pushing forward isnt really working for me, but I do not have much of a choice. I have done what I can in asking for extensions, hopefully the instructor will be empathetic to my situation, if not well I am just going to have to pull it off.
Mom is doing ok, her surgery is going to be any day now. They are just going to overhaul everything.. She is going to have her herina fixed, her hemroids fixed and a hesdierectimy... or however you spell the surgery were they pull out your uterus and sometimes your ovaries.
I am not as worried as monday, but still a bit worried becuase it is going to be a longer surgery beucase they are doing it all at once.
Grandpa is not doing so great, but I am hoping he is going to get better. Grandma is freaking so that acutaly makes me even mroe worried becuse she is usually pretty strong about this. I think all of us have reached that point were joking is not helping much.

So sicne I am busy worrying I am not really doing as well on the homework and projects as I wish I was. The major project is mainly done, just one more section to write, but I am not sure how well the rest of it is done. Luckily even though it is pretty much my grade in the class I will be given time to fix any big mistakes.

The one I am worried about is the fete class, if i am not given the extension I am not sure I am going to finish the final assignment. and if I do not get it turned in on time i fail the class... It is a fail or pass class... it is either get all the assignments in and on time or fail. The other two assignments I did a good job on and I turned them in early, so I am hoping this will influence the instructor to give me the much needed extension..

ANd chemsitry I think will be easy to get an extension. He should be cool about it. ANd even if I dont I am not worried about it effecting my grade that greatly..

Ok I am done with my break. I am going to fnish teh last section of hte unit. and depending on how i feel start typing up the parts of the assignemt for fete up.

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 14:30:30 GMT

still not sure what is wrong with mom, nor can they decide how to fix it.
same with grandpa....

trying not to freak out about it. just waiting for whatever comes along. THinking positive.

In other news I am very glad that there are only two weeks of classes left in the semsmter and the rest is finals. I just have to keep knocking peices of the mountain down. (refering to the homeowrk I have) :-P there are a couple classes were I am nearly done or done. so that is nice.

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 22:11:07 GMT

I get almost three thanksgiving dinners this year.. I am way thankful for that... maybe i wont be able to fit into my pants by thursday night, but I will be so happy and sleepy that I shouldnt even care.
Tommorow I have thanksgiving with a bunch of friends that do it every year, then thursday morning i am going to be over at Seans house for short time, then I am running out to my sister-in-law wiht sean to have dinner. I cannot wait to see how much bigger she is. She is goign to be about 6 months along i believe. The baby is due in early april, actually last I heard it was april 8th, bethies birthday, though J thinks closer to Ts the Beths.
Only a two more weeks of lots of homework, then it mellows out a ton for the last week and of course finals week. Then it is on to my last semester on campus!!! this makes me happy every time i say it.

LOCKS OF LOVE

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 04:37:04 GMT

I went from this:

To This:

It was scary, but I love it!

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 20:49:22 GMT

not feeling as freaked today..

that could be becuase i pretended school didnt exist as soon as i came home today.. played a couple hours of the fishey game... that equals a lot of de stressing..
i mean what is less stressfull then trying to feed dozens of fish every few seconds, collecting the coins they poop out and killing the aliens that try to eat your fish.. :)

when i get to seans I am going to dive right into the homework i have.. i really only have one assignment due on monday, but two due on wednesday, and one of them is super long.. I am going to get the monday assignmnt done today.. hopefully, and i am going to work on the wednesday (the short one) on saturday and after the party on sunday... then on monday when i get the marked up rough draft back i am going to work on that for two days and maybe i will do just fine...

even now with the load i have to do i am still feeling pretty relaxed.

oh and i am scheduled to work on friday and saturday so far.. yay.. maybe i will get sunday as well and i can be rolling in the doe.. ( I have 11 hours between the two days thus far, which frankly for bath and body works is pretty fricken good. thats going to be about a 70-75 dollar check depeding on how much gets taken out in taxes and the like.. which i wont get for a bit.. but thats ok, it will be nice when it does come in

which reminds me i should be getting a check for bbw from the last time i worked.. payday was the 13th, so it should be in by now.

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 16:05:17 GMT

I WISH I WAS ALL DONE WITH SCHOOL!!
no more education classes, they just are the most frustrating things ever. I can do the chem classes all day long, but these stupid ed classes.
I cant ask my profs questions and get a real response back because they do not know enough about biology... I sometimes cant aks a question becuase I have no idea what I want to ask or how to phrase it.
I think it is pretty ironic they are trying to teach us to be the kind of teacher whose students understand what we want and what we are doing. Becuase of course how does a student learn without understanding... but we are beign taught this by being confused and frustrated..
My prof said, "if you are feeling frustrated, lost and have no idea if you are doing anyhing right, then you are right on track." WELL HOW DOES THAT HELP ME!!

I keep having melt downs and I swear I am going to end up with an ulser.   I just do not have enough time in the day to get everything done, so i guess I no longer get to sit and relax with my crocheting in front of the tv, I no longer get to hang out with anyone, and I should stop sleeping so much.. cut my sleep down to 6 hours a night..

yeah thats a good idea.. kill myself with stress, no sleep and no stress releif..

It almost discourages me from becoming a teacher.   If I can not do this, may be i shouldnt teach at all.

ARRG.

Ignore this melt down... they happen every other week. Then I have at least one mini melt down once a week.. this is just a fun semester... The people I feel bad for are mandy and sean becuase they hear my bitching the most.

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 14:09:49 GMT

So i am at the airport with sean..... he is flying with students and i am on the ground doing homework, or was doing homework...

I am typing on a really really old keyboard, though the computer is newer. Every time I hit the space it makes a big clunk, and you can hear every key i tap. Oh and I have to press hard on the space bar becuase it kinda sticks hence the big clunk it makes. I dont think that even our key board at home is this crappy, which is ironic, becuase the computer here is ten times better.

OH why am I at the airport with sean, and stuck on the ground while he is flying?? Becuase he has i think two students to fly with today. And right now he is flying with one of them. But why are YOU at the airport you ask? Because tonight is bethies halloween party and sean and I are going together.. and instead of back tracking to his house and wasitng gas I am sitting at the airport. It really isnt that bad, excpet that I have been here an hour and I am already bored. I have at least 3 more hours to go. AT LEAST.. :-P Well I guess I will work on some chemistry.. then maybe try to do some research for my education classes.. Looking up lessons and facts and crap, which would be easier were I can print out things....

which reminds me for some reason my compter and my printer do not like each other and refuse to work together.

Oh one more thing... at mike's party last week on the 6th.. Including me ther was only 6 people not married/pregnant or engaged at the party. 2 of those are a couple talking about marrying and getting engaged within a year. so that narrows it down to four... of the about 15 people that were there.... crazy crazy times. Those times when you start to realize that you may be an adult

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 04:46:49 GMT

I am starting to get jealous of everyones working digital cameras... :(

Ok List

Save for a car
Save for a new digital camera
save for two bridesmaid dresses
save for tons of wedding presents
save for anniversary and christmas presents for sean.

umm.... maybe I need a third job... :-P

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 04:00:01 GMT

OOOh, this weekend was great. I cried at least once because I was so happy.
Though on the down side, I hurt my ankle walking off, or actually falling off a friends porch. It is already feeling loads better. It has never hurt to stand on, just to rotate back and forth and up and down. So swimming should be fine tommorow if I baby it. If my ankle stil hurts on tuesday I am going to email my instructor and let him know that I wont make it in. THere would be too much shifting and I dont want to make it worse or prolong what ever it is thats going on.

But yay!!!

all right going to explore the rest of the internet.

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 04:44:06 GMT

Have not updated in a while so I decided late at night, almost ready for bed, why not.

Lets see, started classes which have been going well.
Though I sometimes get confused not on what the projects for the ed classes are supposed to be, but the part that we currently work on. Like going from the big idea to the essential questions to the understandings for the unit plan.
I am just trying to keep a positive attitude about it and think that it will make sense in the end which is what really matters. (hopefully because the assessment and the unit plan are the majority of the grade for two classes)

My Fete class, or visiting the high school for the fete class has been really cool, I am starting to get involved, mostly right now just passing out papers or collecting.. but sometimes she asks me to compare what they are doing to the things needed or way things are done in college. Soon I am going to get more involved.

I am also going to another highschool and tutoring the football players after school. Sounds like an ugh kind of thing, but really it has been pretty neat. I help kids in math and science mostly. It actually is pretty rewarding, the coach was telling us that when they did this very same thing last year 15 of the kids got a 3.0 or higher which is a very high number for them.

The stockroom is the same old same old. I missed Joe and its great to be back making fun of him and goofing around with my coworkers.

The rooming with mandy is going really well, we have of course snapped at each other but nothing major. THe majority of the time we get along fine, and the only times when we might get annoyed with each other is when we are over tired or frustrated with out side things.
Oh and mandy is going to be 21 soon, Shadana is already 21, and I am of course 22 almost 23, and unless someone moves in we will have a 21 and up room, which means alcohol is permitted.

I think that is the jist of life for me right now.
except for the maybe working next weekend back at home.

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 15:25:04 GMT

so now the computer is working to get online everywere. It just started working this morning. Who knows, maybe it was easterns campus as usual.

Sean was supposed to come over today.. maybe I misunderstood...

getting stuff done. Already have homework and about to start on that.

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 03:06:11 GMT

So sean has gotten a new computer, and becuase he is the best boyfriend in the world he gave me his old one.

The problem is, it wont allow me to go to sites that are secure.. lets say any of my email accounts. I can get to lj, google, probably facebook but I havent tried that yet.. this is frustrating.. I am goin gto call ict sometime tommorow so I can work it out. hopefully, and if that doesnt work luke is going to try to stop by and give me a hand.

first day of classes tommorow looking forward to it..

I need to get to my email soon so I can start trying to email people that I need to do observations there.. ug

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 01:08:35 GMT

ug, missing sean. missing school as well.

I guess since its getting close I kind of want time to go faster so I can be there now now now. I am not very good at waiting. It makes me anxious.

tommorow the puppy is getting fixed, so i have to stay around waiting for the call to pick him up, and make sure he isnt alone. and probalby stick around on wednesday depeding on how he does on tues.

Im running out of books to read. so i think I am going to start reading books again.

ok time to get off line.

Quick Update

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 18:48:27 GMT

Its been ages.

Lets see what has happened or new?

1. Working at Bath and Body Works. (sucky thing is that I am only get at the most 5 hours a week) I like it, I get along with most of the people. Plus i get a discount when I buy thigns there... or even da da da Victoria Secret becuase they are under the same brand. Well I have to work at BBW for 90 days.. which is almost here.

2. Sean is working two jobs! I do not get to spend much time with him, and what I do get to spend with him it is mostly sleeping time. He is working at chyrsler again. Also he is working as a flight instructor, which makes him pretty happy. I only have to hold out for a bit longer. He is supposed to have the last two weeks of august off. Then back to work at chrysler for the fall semester and he isnt planing on working there again. So we will have so much time together we wont know what to do. Especially when you think about it. since last summer he has worked at chrysler all but 4 maybe 5 months in the past 15.

3. I have a new puppy!!!! Next time I have opportunity I will put the absolutely adorable pictures of him up. His name is scooter and he is 20 weeks old. We got him through steve. Steve was driving his semi through oklahoma and stoped at a truck stop. In front of his car was a puppy eating the garbage, so he gave is some water and some food. The dog started fallowing him around, so steve being the mushy hearted boy that he is brought the puppy with him. HE couldnt keep him, and none of the people he tried to place him with would take him so we got him. He is huge, already he is almost as big as spice ever was. He was 30 pounds last time we weighed him (he wieghed 20 when he was wieghed the 2 weeks previous), and because he is now dewormed he has gained even more wieght in the past few days. He is growing like a weed.

That is about all that is new. I will try to get on again soon.

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 18:41:04 GMT

Just one last paper to go. Though it is actually already written so all i have to do is revise... yay.. Then just three finals.. and that is used loosely
Final 1: CTAC 226, non-verbal. The final is in a group and she practically gave us all the answers yesterday. woo
Final 2: BIOL 406: I think we are just going over stuff, no actual final, just jerking around
Final 3: This is the one that I am going to have to study for.. CHEM 453, biochem.. It is probably not going to be that hard. We are getting extra credit for showing up at class tonight. If I get a 100 on the test then i get 110 overall.. So thats the plan.. Trying to make my grade an A for sure, instead of teetering on the edge
Well there is an optional FINAL 4: Zool, but depending on my grade for this test it might not be worth taking. So I am keeping my book and papers just in case.